Roller Coaster of Emotions

What a weekend! Justice and I drove up to Lansing on Friday, getting in about 7pm. Ed and I headed to dinner around 9pm, just the two of us. I have really missed him and this situation is going to change.

On Saturday morning, we had a memorial service for Ed's Grandmother, Marcella, who passed away on Thursday. I had never met her, and Ed had not seen her in about 20 years. It was a great service and I think I got to know her through this. I met Ed's Grandfather, Russell, and we got to see the rest of the Lebbon family. It was an awful reason for the family to finally get back together, so they decided that there will be a family reunion this summer here at mom and dad's place,since they have the pool!

Saturday afternoon, we headed over to Kalamazoo. My step-mom, Vicky, graduated from Western Michigan University AND turned 50 on the same day!! This was the best time I have had in a long time. I got hugs and picked on and talked to by people I just adore and had not seen in quite awhile. It helped to solidify the fact that we need to get closer to family and friends. I really miss being able to just drive an hour and see the people I love and grew up with.

Sunday, mom and I went shopping!! Yep, dad and Ed let the girls loose. We had so much fun and bought whatever looked good. Then, we headed to PF Changs for dinner. This was so great, as I do not get PF Changs EVER!!! Ed is not a chinese food fan. I had my most favorite drink - Key Lime Martini. OH MY GOODNESS, if I could figure out how to make these at home, I would have one or two or three every night. Yes, it is that good.

Monday, I just hung out around the house with Justice, as everyone else was up and out the door early for work. I got to have lunch with my friend Alyssa who is pregnant and due in August. I had not seen her since she told me in December that they were expecting, so I finally got to see the belly bump. I also had a chance to look at what could possibly be the location of the Lebbon Law Firm - if I decide that this is what I am going to do. This space would put me in very close proximity to 8 other solo practioners, so I would have people I could go to with questions and get the chance for overflow work from them. I plan on making a decision before I leave here tomorrow.

Justice Face

Justice Face
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Justice is getting ready to turn 3! We thought everyone would want to see how big he is - 94lbs!!!!

Dutch Tulips

Dutch Tulips
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These are the from the tulip bulbs I bought in the Netherlands. And you can bet they will be dug up and brought with us everytime we move.

Tulip Close Up

Tulip Close Up
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I love close ups of flowers in bloom. Of course, I am still trying to figure out how to make the pictures clear.

I wonder

Sometimes, I wonder why I have this blog. Does anyone actually read it? How much can I say without people getting pissy? Do I really care if what I say pisses people off? Why am I wondering? I have said things, asked questions, asked for opinions and no one bothers to answer, or no one bothers to read.

Life, right now, is kind of crappy. Ed is living & working in Michigan. I am here, in Ohio, at a job I do not much care for, wondering if I made a HUGE mistake going to law school. I took one of those personality tests that is supposed to help you figure out what you should be doing for a career. Lawyer was so far away from my personality type that I all of a sudden do not feel as bad that I am questioning what I have done/become. Now, I have to figure out what my next step is going to be. Actually, it is what our next step will be since my life is not my own anymore. I tend to forget, even after 5 years, that any decision I make affects more than just me. I have to remember that I have Ed to think about and that it is best if I include him in discussions before I make a decision.

Family is funny. They say they are thinking of us and hoping we find a place back in Michigan. But, are they really thinking of us, or are they just being selfish because they will be happier if we are there? I have been doing some reading of some blogs and have come to realize that I am not as important to people as I thought I was. It hurts. It is kind of like being slapped in the face. On one hand, it is something I have always suspected, but on the other hand, it is REALLY difficult to have it actually put out there by the ones you love.

Another lonely week

Ed came home over the weekend. It was nice to have him there. Now, he is gone and it is quiet. Except, of course, for Justice. He is whining and looking everywhere for Ed. Everytime I get home, he keeps looking to see if Ed is going to walk in behind me.

Ed loves his job. Which is really great news.

I am still looking for a new job in the Lansing area.

Great Weekend

The weather was beautiful all weekend. So, Justice and I took advantage. We picked up all of the branches/sticks in the back yard, cleaned up the front garden a little and even went to the dog park. We spent 2 hours at the dog park on Sunday with Rachel and her two dogs, Brutus & Maggie. The park was busy and Justice had so much fun. It was a little muddy, so you could always tell who the new arrivals were, as they were still clean.

Saturday, we cleaned up the house a little and then had company over for dinner. My friend John, from work/school, stopped over for a couple of hours. I made beef enchiladas and we talked about our futures. Mine is still convoluted, but I have things to think about and discuss with Ed. It would be a HUGE step for us to move back to Michigan without me having a steady paycheck. I am thinking of opening my own firm, but...